State! All day I was freaking out because I was so nervous which is a bad thing. When we got there we relaxed which was the only thing I couldn't do. Finally we began warming up. I brought my iPod to help me mentally get in the right phase. As we warmed up I was so tense! I should have relaxed more. We warmed up about 2 miles. While doing my leg swings I was still not in the right phase and trying to get into it. I may have been psyced out a bit because it was state. Then we got to the starting line. I thought it was a race where you start, but NO, they have a minute of silence which freaked me out! I wanted to start NOW! I feel as if I do better at the races where they just say "go!" and you go.
When they shot the gun I put my eyes on the end of the funnel and sprinted. I did get boxed in a little, but it didn't affect badly. After a couple meters past the funnel I felt somebody trip on the back of my shoe which untied it. Later on I found out it was Miranda and I felt so bad. I just kept going up the hill. I was still feeling nervous which was weird. I think I was in the top 20 to 30. As we went on that flat spot quite a few girls passed me, then going down the steep hill I couldn't catch my breath. I was breathing VERY hard. Then, before the hill I just didn't feel good (probably from nerves). I tried to go up the hill fast, but I couldn't. When I got to the top I tried to speed up again and I crossed the one mile mark. A bunch of people had passed me by now and I wanted to give up. It was all mental. The race continued and I feel as if I didn't do very well. I felt so sick, also, at one point I told myself I'd just go to the side and throw up. The last 800meters I started to actually feel a bit better and I sped up knowing this was my last chance to get a better time. My last 200 meters I felt much more amazing and passed a couple of girls which I am happy about because my sprint was actually good.
Afterwards, while watching Conner's amazing race, I did a two mile cool down where I began to feel better. I wish I ran my race feeling how I did at the time.
Overall I had a good start, terrible middle, and pretty descent end. My goal was sub-twenty which I didn't get by 13 seconds! I was mainly really mad at myself because my time was just a bit slower than tempo. Now that I think about it, it was my freshman year and I three more years. I was pretty hard on myself about that. Our team did pretty well, we got 7th which is much better than last year.
I'm pretty sad the season's over, but I'm excited for next year and now I'm going to train for Foot Locker Regionals.
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